Yeah... I've had one of those days today.
So today i went to a baby group that i hadn't been to before. Why haven't i been before? Because i haven't ever taken E to one... and i have only ever taken Pol to a few before christmas last year. Yep, i'm fully aware that is really terrible of me. I'm fully aware that i should be taking them.
Reasons why i put it off (in true list form.)
- When i was pregnant with E i had bad SPD and chasing after O with this was hell.
- We don't have one in the village so it means driving to one (which i know isn't actually a huge problem but i like to stick to my morals of walking to school/pre school etc.)
- I don't know many people who go, so it would mean going on my own.
- When E was younger she was quite hard work, i didn't fancy going to a baby group for her to just strop the whole time and be in my arms
- I'm busy. Like, all the time! If i'm not on the school run i'm taking the other to pre school, or posting that parcel i was meant to post a week ago, or seeing friends or doing the "town run".
- I have no idea what will happen. Who will be there or if anyone will like me.
It was very busy, H was at school and O was at pre school so it was just me and E. We could spend some proper one to one time together and i could, hopefully, have a natter. I arrived and knew where i was going because i had been to the same place with H religiously every week until he was 1. I plonked my things down and was greeted a very warm smile and hello by one of the ladies who run it. Yeah, maybe this isn't so bad afterall.
E had an absolute blast, she is now at the point where she will happily lay on a play gym without moaning at me, and roll about and play. I spoke to quite a few other mums, a few girls all around the 5/6month age so that was really nice too.
On the way home i realised that #6 was the main reason why i didn't go before. It's true in so many ways of my life. I hate not knowing what is going to happen, i love to be in control and organised. Going to a baby group with no one i know there, not knowing if anyone will like me or even talk in the first place, is totally out of my hands.
My good pal Charlie from Learning Lessons in Mummyography refers to a Chris Moyle's saying a lot (hahaa!) - FOMO. Fear of missing out. She tends to buy everything a baby needs and more because of her FOMO. Its hilarious and its definitely one of her qualities that makes her the Charlie we all love! So to make myself feel better... I have made my own little one up.
FOTU. Like tofu... but fotu... Fear of the unknown!!
So, ahem.. "Hello.. My name is Char, and i suffer with severe FOTU."
Thought of the day - Relax woman. Sometimes not knowing what is going to happen makes it all that bit more exciting. Don't fret!!